in search

i saw few flashes of a girl in my dreams
she was nice, she was cute
she was someone whom i knew
in dreams, we hugged, we kissed
but i don't remember her face
my mind is still lukin' at her
the image is blurry
n i don't remember anything else,
but her smile, from where it all started.
it's been a tym, n the face is not yet downloaded completely
don't know when it gonna happen.....
those flashes disturb my everyday's sleep
but i love it like that.....

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in search
kalyan!

26/11

1 year passed n kasab is more secure than us
1 year passed n the anger within is still raising
the victims didn't get what they deserved
n our choice,govt., is spending 31crores on kasab

why is he still alive, why don't they shoot him up
the world doesn't know what to do
n the govrnment, our choice, did nothing
but saluted n offered few bucks to their families

a life is not equal to a cheque of many zeros with 1, 2 or 5
it won't bring back those lost lives
it won't bring back the smiles of their children, parents n wives
n of course, it won't erase the dreadful memories of that terrific night
-kalyan

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after a series of debate on my hostel's roof-top
n after going through my friend's blog,
i was squared back to the same position
from where it ol started n turned into a new composition

ghosts, black cats, god, etc n the devoping science
the tiff between them has been the root for the topic's demise
everytime it takes off from zero n lands on faith
everyday, when a cat cross us, the topic reincarnates

the last word i used, took birth from those beliefs
n the world is still in a dilemma cuz it's hard to believe
there are several factors which we come across in our routine,
established by those who were living long before than Constantine

plucking grass, a broken mirror in home n making my foes jealous
i have been doing all, but nothing ever happened! touchwood!!!
see, again! again i unintensionally wrote the word, why?
i don't believe in such crap yet i'm not sure to believe!

this is what i had to say!
i'm again squared to the same!
the creator serviced equal in every plate,
but we believe in which we have faith!

-----kalyan!

The week that made me weak

A hot sunny week of June
And the angry sun with his son in the noon
The week had the date of my birth
The week had everything possible of getting me hurt

First, it was the exams which scared me off
And then the injuries, which turned me off
For the first time I cried being away from home
And I didn’t talk to them as someone stole my phone

People I loved were away from me
I prayed for luck, but it fucked me
Didn’t get a chance to meet the girl
But that didn’t bother, I stopped crying for her

Few more things happened, but that hardly matter
Friends still try to solve my matter
Never could imagine, I’ll have such a week
Still wrote the shit being a bit weak

Hope thou my problems are solved
Hope thou my weakness get dissolved
"Hope" – was just for the confidence I may gain
But with results next week, luck will fuck me again!

-----Kalyan Chakravarthy A.

coming from m college, i thought of this
many thoughts switched but i got stuck on it
i saw a two storey house in a single storey building
der i saw a guy with n no. of siblings

my heart melted as it lit my brain
gosh! the lady takes bath in the flow of drain
folks play cards in the middle of track
mates collar each other for a bit of snack

all i saw was just one side of train
to look other side i needed help of a crane
after every station i was shown the same scene
i hope you're getting what i actually mean

where are our politicians who fight for votes
where are their promises which they uttered like goats
i ask the politicians, have they ever travelled in the rail
oh i forgot, they have just come out through bail

their main aim was to eradicate poverty
but they grasped votes by using the word "poverty"
it's been since indira gandhi who gave the idea
but actually nothing happened, it was outta their criteria

we gave them n number of chances to remove the slums
evryone participated n gave rest to their bumps
enough has been done for the betterment of india by them
the era should be gunned where a common man replaces them

we should not wake up to vote n get a mark on our hand
we shoud not wake up when someone enters our land
we should not just see n cry for the people living in mapples
but we should be awaken before something like this happens

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

hey sis! sorry that i forgot ur b'day

a person with whom i can share everything
a person who is a friend n also my sibling
the 1 who knows all my secrets
the 1 who blackmails me for every puff of my ciggarette

it's my sister whom i can rely on
it's just her who just keeps talking on
i share all my feelings with her
n sometimes i fight with her

we tease each other n make fun of all we meet
when she played with me, i usually use to cheat
we celebrated every moment when were together
but i missed a day which was really special for her

i feel ashamed for not wishing on your special day
how did i forget that it was your b'day
i had it in my mind everyday
but sorry sis! that i forgot ur b'day

i promise that this will never happen again
n please forgive me, i say sorry again
this poem for you is a sorry note n also mah gift
this poem by kalyan will bound us again just as a fist

-----Kalyan Chakravarthy A.

This is something which I've never said
This is for someone special whom I'll love till I'm dead
Dad, this one is for you
There's a lot to say but words are very few

Departing from you I realized what you meant to me
You cared for me, in the times when you weren't free
You tried every possible thing to bring smile on mah face
I miss you here, I cherish those days...

The way you brought me up, no other could do
The way you praised me in galore...sorry, no control on tears, what to do
You fulfilled my wishes whatever they be
You loved me so much n I was blind to see

Sorry dad, I never stood up what you dreamt for me
Sorry dad, I didn't know that you really love me
Sorry dad, I was too harsh on you
Sorry for everything n I really love you!!!!!

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

ek raaz chhupa hai iss zamaane se
ek dad utha hai is dil ke paemaane mein
pyar hua tha isse bhi kabhi
roya tha yeh dil tere door jaane se

chhupke kahin tujhe main dekha karta tha
jeeke wahin, tujhe yaad main karta tha
seene mein dastak di thi tere muskaan ne
par paas rehke bhi teri doori se roya karta tha

iqraar kiya tha maine bhi kabhi
izhaar suna tha sabhi ne wahi
mehfuz rakha tha iss dil mein tujhe
tha na koi tujh jaisa hasin

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

khafaa ho ya bhool gaye
kya rishte hamare toot gaye?
ek galti kya hui hamse
aap hame dekhte hi rooth gaye

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duniya se kai gile hai
kasmo se hoth mere sile hai
chaah kar bhi anchaaha kiya
lamhe maine tere khushiyo mein jeeye hai

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kishto mein kya maarte ho
maarna hai toh jalaa hi do
tadpaate kyu ho mujhe pukaar ke
pyar nahi karte toh mujhe bhulaa hi do

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

ye din dhal jaega
teri yaad sataaegi
tu jo saath nahi,
meri jaan hi chali jaaegi

meri zindagi ka paegaam ho tum
meri khushiyo ka sansar ho tum
main kahin tanha na reh jaun
meri manzil ka makkaam ho tum

fakr hai mujhe apne pyar par
khushi hai tere izhaar par
kya kehna teri adaaon ka
ye jaan nissar hai teri muskaan par

marne mein koi harz nahi
jeena mera farz nahi
jeeta hun toh sirf tere liye
tujhe chhod, mera koi mazhab nahi

-----kalyan chakravarhy a.

bas reh gaye kuchh pal aur kuchh armaan
rehta hun main bheed mein bhi tanha
duniya meri mujhse hi hai
ye lafz mere kuchh ankahe se hai

duniya mujhse khafaa hai
yeh zindagi meri sazaa hai
koi na ho mujh jaisa
rabb se meri yahi dua hai

na hai koi dharm na koi mazhab
main na jaanu kya hai mere jeene ka maksad
hai mere kai naam, jaane mujhe duniya saari
peeyu toh sharaabi aur bhatku toh bhikari

jeeta hun maikhaane mein
yeh zindagi meri sharaab hai
mash-hoor iss zamaane mein
pee jaun toh duniya be-hisaab hai

dhoondti ha nigaahein na jaane yeh kisko
maangti hai sahara mere dil ke mehfil ko
na hai mera koi apna na hai koi paraya
iss be-imaan duniya ne mujhe hardam hai haraaya

behak jaata hun duniya ki baaton mein
kehte hai, rakhte hai mujhe panaaho mein
jeene ki himmat nahi na hai marne ka jazba
sochta hun jal jaunga ya reh jaunga main mar kar bhi tanha

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

no desire to learn
my mind just burns
i fuckin' don't care
even if they show me guns

go, just fuck those teachers
they haunt like creepers
they have no fuckin' idea
they are my mind sweepers

i gonna cut them into pieces n pieces
i won't just stop even if appears the Jesus
i ain't in a mood to listen anything
i ain't in a situation to bear anything

none has born to sway mah mind
screw those teachers, take them outa mah sight
hear me carefully & understand what i say
this is to all those dickheads, who come in mah way

get carried away, that isn't mah way
i don't give a damn, i mean what i say
if mah teachers die, it won't matter to me
this damn attitude in me, you have to see

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

Khoya hun teri yaadon mein
dooba hun teri nigaahon mein
kya kahun main apne deedar ka
rakha hai usse in panaahon men

kehna tha mujhe kuchh tujhse
mann mein thi yeh baat na jaane kabse
iqraar kar raha hun main apne pyar ka
dekha hai tujhe in nigaahon ne jabse

sanam-bewafa nahi hun main
teri zindagi mein kahin gum hun main
nah na kehna tere iss aashiq ko
seh na paunga iss dard ko main

zindagi mein hardam tere saath rahunga
tere labho se khushiyon ko na hatne dunga
bas ab aaja in baahon mein
main apni baat hamesha muqqammal rakhunga

mashgool nahin hun main sharab mein
ghutno pe hun ab tere samne
bas yahi kuchhh kehna tha mujhe tujhse
ab meri zindagi hai tere jawaabon mein

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

jeene do, han mujhe peene do
rehne do, yeh dard mujhe sehne do
inkar kar toh mujhe chhod gayi
ab in yaadon ke sang mujhe tanha rehne do

gam mein main peeta hun
teri yaadon mein ab jeeta hun
iqraar karna tha iss jahan se
E-Jaan! main ab bhi tujhse hi mohabbat karta hun.

aitbaar hai mujhe tere inkar ka
aetraaz hai mujhe mere intezaar ka
koi kami nahi hai iss jahan mein
naaz hai mujhe tere iss andaaz ka



-----kalyanchakravarhy a.

bhoolna chaaha tha, par bhula na saka
kuch kehna chahta tha, par keh na saka
tere yaadon ke sang jeena toh hamne seekh liya
par ye dil dhadkano ko chhuda na saka

duriyan thi, kuch majburiya thi
tanha si meri zindagi mein teri zarurat thi
juda hone ke darr se aankhon mein nami si thi
khuda ne hame milaana na chaaha, shayad mujhmein hi kuch kami si thi

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

raahi hun, chalta rehta hun
musafir hun, bhatakta rehta hun
galiyan, nukkad chaurah- yahi hai mera sansar
koi mujhe raah dikhae, atak gaya main nadiya ke majdhaar

pahunchna hai mujhe uss paar
manzil ko hai mera intezaar
sitaaro se ki guarish, ke kare kuch upkaar
par baadal beech mein aa gaye, atak gaya main nadiya ke majdhar

banaya har kisiko apna yaar
kiya har kisi se ek jaisa pyar
ek mukaam hasil kar, main pad gaya bimar
sab wahin tanha chhod gaye, atak gaya main nadiya ke majdhaar

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.

tears roll down, when i remember those days
smile flows through, when i remember her face
i still wonder, why she called it off
that was the day, i really felt pissed off

she called me up, to meet at the restaraunt
i didn't know why, but i kept my helmet on
i reached there fast, she was late again
i kept my jacket aside, it got five coffee's stain

i spent an hour, cuz she was late
that's the worst part of her which i really hate
then she enters with a smile on her face
she knew her smile won't allow me to say

she holded my hand & said sorry for being late
i said, " no problem, that's in my fate"
hearing the word fate, her mind just swayed
she holded my hand tightly, i saw how her smile got fade

i made her comfortable & asked what's the matter dear
she said, "i wanna say something n you have to hear"
she confessed that her relation with someone else was on
i screamed "but why", everybody were staring us at the restaraunt

i took my hand back n asked is it some kinda prank
i was in a confused state n my mind was blank
my last words to her were "just fuck off"
i never asked her why did she called it off!?!

i never knew what i had to say
i never knew why she left my way
i never knew why her mind swayed
i don't know, will my heart ever aid?

-----kalyan chakravarthy a.